‘When the going gets tough the tough get going’ was something my gymnastic coach said to me every time something got hard and challenging, so much so that it did not stop at gymnastics, it became a mantra for my life.
My celebrity status was empty and lonely, yet it was a time of my life that was full of people.
Because I was single, I was always really anxious about my future, I worried about how I would look after myself both financially and physically when I got old. This constant anxiousness led to years of sleepless nights.
Lastly having even the most beautiful divine body ever, I always felt ‘it wasn’t good enough.’ This led to eating disorders, including bulimia and at one point I was told if I didn’t make a change I would need to be hospitalized.
Can you imagine the irony of being told I wasn’t a good ‘visualizer’ because I couldn’t bring the dear long term loving relationship into my life that I so wished for, while it was my visualizing in my competition years that supported every successful competition?
Bizarre to be told you’re not good a visualizing when I could visualize my competitions brilliantly? How does that work? ‘Oh yes you’re belief system is not aligned to the ‘visualization’ so NLP will fix that,’ I was told… another few years of trying and still no joy. By that stage I simply put a good face on about it and ‘made the best of my lot in life.’
Three more times Gabe’s phone number was given to me until I actually dialed the number.
The healing process – what I changed with food and exercise
2013/14 My migraines became horrendous, regular and very severe. Although I have been a relatively healthy eater all my life, the feeling I felt was that I needed to be super caring on the body, to be gentle and give it a break from any stimulants or anything inflammatory. This I chose to do step by step in order to ‘feel’ the difference for myself as I went. Now 3 years later I am still living this way. My migraines are very, very, rare, my energy has increased and quite honestly my body feels amazing – so why stop?
Step 1 - No alcohol & refined sugars.
After a particularly bad period of experiencing migraines I felt something had to change. Alcohol and sugar felt the most obvious to give up.
Step 2 – No Caffeine
This was a natural step, as the stimulants felt like something to take a break from.
What happened – my migraines reduced.
Step 3 – Exercise
I took a break from running which now was my only high impact exercise – this was easy, as running had become painful on my knees. Yet running for me had been my ‘me’ time and to be in nature, so for a while I did feel the pull to go back to it, yet the feeling in my body felt so lovely I didn’t want to compromise it.
I noticed that while having a cup of now decaffeinated tea that I always burped. I’ve never been a big dairy eater except cheddar cheese and my beloved cup of teas everyday. So I thought I’d try herbal as no other milk suits English Breakfast tea.
What happened: I no longer had indigestion.
Step 5 – No gluten
This was a hard one for me, it was something that I had to be more organized with. Why did I give up gluten when I seemingly had no symptoms? Because my body still felt delicate and I wanted to be super caring of it. From what I had read gluten brings a lot of inflammation into the body and I felt ‘why not give my body a rest for a bit.’
What happened – I lost heaps of weight and learnt a whole new way of living that is easy, simple and gorgeous on my body. NO migraines for months now.
Step 6 – I stopped teaching spin classes
This I found hard as I’d grown to be so attached to the participants over the years, I’d found ways over the years to teach that didn’t push my body, yet inside it felt wrong to support others to push their bodies in the same way when I knew it wasn’t supportive. I had already given up teaching boxing, step and pump.
This was a leap of faith because the Spin classes were the last financial regular payment – no more security of ‘X’ amount of $’s but it felt true and people who know me would attest to the fact that integrity and a deep quality of care is what I’m about.